Confessions of a FaceBook Commentor

On and off today, I took part in an interesting though distressing set of comments at a FaceBook site that were spurred by this weekend’s bizarre confrontation and arrest of Louis Henry Gates by Cambridge police. Mark Cohen, an erudite Pennsylvania State Representative got the ball rolling by posting a link to his commentary on this issue at the Daily Kos. See Mark’s piece here. It’s an excellent drawing together of a number of the more bizarre race-related incidents that we’ve seen ’round here over the past several weeks.

The kurfuffle coming out of this Gates incident is the question of whether it is a blatant example of racial profiling. I usually try not to get involved in commenting on people’s posts to their FaceBook sites, but I really liked what Mark wrote and so I paid attention to other people’s comments on and off as their additions rolled into my email box. By the end of the day there are 40 comments and the entire discussion seemed to have turned into some folks claiming that racism is an evil that must be confronted wherever it is found in America, while others were arguing that perhaps acknowledging racism is a way of making it real.

Anyone who knows me or who has read this little blog of mine will know that I do not buy into racism on any level and that I choose to believe that life is about people living in the world as individuals. I strongly believe that folks cannot speak intelligently about race and prejudice because these issues are based on false premises, lies, and the funk of group hypnotism.

There is no question that there is a power system at play in America, and there is a case to be made that it is run by “whites,” but trust me, there are no “whites” in power. This is the 21st century. Who the hell is white? Generally, those in power are the ones with educations, particularly law degrees, money, connections, and hustle. You’re only as powerless as you feel. If you’re going to argue with cops, they’re going to more often than not take you in for a sit down visit and call to your parents or your lawyer.

Most important though, all of this points me towards music, comedy and intelligent poetics. Take Gil Scott-Heron’s little ditty that I ran into this morning at Peter Rothberg’s blog at The Nation Whitey On the Moon. I don’t agree with the “Whitey” sentiment Mr. Scott-Heron so expertly wields, but it’s important to pay attention to his message anyway: exactly what are we spending money on in this country?

My final word to Professor Gates, a man whose thoughts and persona we should all deeply love?

Dude, be pissed that the cops messed with you in your home! Don’t let other people’s stupidity work to manufacture and sustain the ugliness of racism.

We Love You David Foster Wallace…Rest In Peace

This twisted appreciation of David Foster Wallace began as an email to my good friend Paula. I’ve edited it a bit since sending it to her, but for the most part it remains the same as I wrote it struggling to survive the weirdest illness I’ve ever had. (Click the photo to the left and it will take you to a short story published by the New Yorker in 2007 called “Good People.”).

By now you’ve heard that David Foster Wallace hung himself to death on Friday, September 12th. Around that time, I was just beginning a four-day, all out defense against a flu virus the likes of which have never been seen — literally, it would appear, since my name is now on the first page of the CDC’s list of 2008 flu-season illnesses treated in a hospital.

I would like to believe the wild and crazy spirit of DFW may have had a role in things attacking my body (although I know he would have no reason to do so). I knew nothing of his demise until Monday the 15th after a Sunday afternoon in the ER and the embarrassment of realizing that I wasn’t actually going to die (the embarrassment coming when my wife reported that she’d paid the $200 ER co-pay and that it was all right, but still if I could just learn to be sick a bit better without suffering quite so much we would have saved enough money to pay for the Orkin man to do a full sweep and extermination series on our dilapidated house).

During much of my illness from Friday night through Sunday night I struggled with long moments of delirium. My illness was made all that much worse by a sudden onset of sleep apnea, meaning that every time I tried to doze off I would slowly stop breathing, waking suddenly to the physical panic of suffocation. This lasted for almost two days until I finally decided that I didn’t care about the $200 and that I needed at least the solace of overworked nurses (still never failing to make me feel the brilliance of their competence and the charisma of their healing personalities) and young ER docs spread so thin you can see a film of peanut butter just under the stubble on their faces.

I think DFW would have been fascinated by what happened to me on Friday night just as this virus was really kicking into high gear. I was lying on our couch, having dozed on and off through David Letterman and Craig Ferguson’s “Late Late” show. This was weird enough. In my super-psychotic state both shows annoyed me immensely. I began to worry that I’d finally gone beyond Schtick. That’s a terrifying feeling even if you question it from the get-go because you know you’re actually just moronically feeble due to a bunch of microscopic parasites looking to turn your brain into a frothing megalopolis. “I’ve gone beyond Schtick! Oy, fuck me!” Only David Foster Wallace would truly understand the path of fear I had stepped onto. Going beyond Schtick leaves irony behind as well; going beyond Schtick is a step into the unknown.

All of this was through the slow and gradual incremental anti-zen fermentation of viral LOVE that ultimately resulted in this little case of sleep apnea that I took on. By the end of Ferguson’s floggity “Late, Late,” I was floating in and out of sleep in a stupor and fog, sick as a door mouse crushed by barefooted clowns at a combined septuagenarian orgy and an octogenarian S&M-for-late-comers coming out party.

When you’re as sick as I was, sleep is the only heaven. But when every few minutes you begin to doze, feeling nearly pain free, and then you awaken first to the sense that you’re drowning in cotton and warm water, (can’t breathe mother fucker!), and then you realize you can, but oh My God how absolutely horrible it is to feel my body, and what the fuck is on TV?…What the?… perfect people sitting around a room, driving in perfect cars? I heard them just as I was falling asleep: insanely brilliant banter, socially astounding quips and metaphorical lunges, sexy voices, a plot that can turn a lag bolt under a summer deck in Maine. Brilliance!

I think: David Foster Wallace, are you writing TV shows? I’ve never seen anything like this. It’s beyond Mamet because its not trying to be anything important or thick with blood and turmoil.

I think these small but important thoughts about this Foster Wallace TV creation, understanding that I’m really just captured by a crude, multiplying substance roaming through my body, turning it into a home, and then I’m drowning again. It comes as a shock every time. Ub lub lub lub, I hate…and then I look up and everyone on the show has stopped speaking. They’re sitting there or standing in utter silence. I barely have time to register something is wrong, then I’m slipping into a daze again; I hear the intelligent dialog, feel the effect of profundity, and then I’m in a state of paranoid fear, I’m dying! They come up again, only this time the TV flashes a montage of close and wide-angle versions of these people’s lives, they’re not saying a thing, I’m wondering and breathing for my life and then I’m under again thinking maybe it’s them trying to suffocate me and the reason they’re not talking is that they’re waiting to see if I’m just going to die right there.

This went on for about an hour. I didn’t realize until the next day that I wasn’t really sleeping but just letting the virus play with my health. Germs are very intelligent, I think, lying there in agony with my beautiful, healthy wife taking my temperature. I’m hoping they’re not as intelligent as my wife.

The most frightening moment of that night came near the end of the show. I vaulted confused out of my swamp, snuffing and gasping, angry really, and they were all there in a room on the set, just staring at me with a hint of sadness on their faces. That’s when I knew I needed to turn the TV to ESPN reruns of Sports Center. Nothing is more soothing than hearing the same Schtick over and over when it is the importance of sports that is at stake. There is no way to go beyond ESPN Schtick.

Three days later, randomly it seemed at first, I read on my Salon.com an email posting of DFW’S self-hanging. “This is not real,” I thought. “How can you joke about something like this?” He is invincible! How can you be a God of Reality, a maker of Truth like no one else living in this language, and do such a thing. Surely, a joke…I was finally on the mend. Turns out I needed a double dose of Tylenol along with a double dose of Motrin. I’d only been taking Motrin in 200 mg tabs. Should have been 400 all along and taken with the Tylenol, not staggered, which was just a schedule that seemed more healthy. My wife never said, that’s an expensive lesson, $200 to learn that you need 1000 mg of Tylenol and 400 mg of Motrin, but she didn’t have to either. I love my wife. David Foster Wallace could not have killed himself. I feel so much better. But he had…

We’ve lost one of only four great writers living in America today. This will piss a lot of you off, but I don’t care. Barry Hannah, Don DeLillo, and Annie Dillard are the other three. DFW was the tops though. He was our Michael Jordon, our Muhammad Ali. And no one, except us hacks who had aspirations of these four’s absolute human genius, American genius, no one understood how important David’s work was and how he was preparing this next generation to fly finally beyond post-modern twittery. I read Infinite Jest on the toilet only. I figure with over 1200 pages it will take me at least 600 sessions on that toilet. I have Oblivion and Brief Interviews with Hideous Men next to my bed. I get false erections whenever I find a new essay, interview, or story by him in general media. How could anyone be so damned amazing as a writer? How could anyone tell the truth so well about being an American with a brain? How could anyone actually think you’re supposed try to tell the truth…not the literary truth but the raw up the butt truth, the sense of being a turd on the way down, sad, so sad…

I had intended for years to write to DFW after reading an interview in which he talked about “the click” and honesty and good writing being about dying in order to move the reader; that good writing is about really giving something to the reader — de-egoized; that there may be some writer out there who has gone beyond irony, a writer who uses sincerity as his tool, who brings back in the flush of life as lived through love. I wanted to write to him to tell him that I think that’s what I’ve been doing because I can’t even define what irony is and it makes sense, because for every great piece of fiction I’ve ever written I’ve received nothing but rejection. I was going to ask him if he might read my very long, sad novel about confused male sexuality. It would have been pathetic, I know. He is four years younger than me and I’m kind of seeing him as a god (a King really), but there you have it. By now, I would hope you’d expect something as childish as that from me. It’s not my childishness though. It’s his greatness. I’m willing to grovel at the feet of someone whose understanding of American literature was the new beginning we all wanted, even back there in 1977 when it became clear that Ken Kesey did not want to write anymore. We wanted something. I kept looking. I kept trying. Roth, Oates, Bellow, Salinger, Ford, Cheever, Munro — shit the list goes on and on. You can’t imagine how many girls I’ve picked up with the line, “When are we going to find the next Fitzgerald, Kerouac, or Hemingway? When? No, no, no, all of these you list are derivative, realist, bullshit.”

What would I say to DFW now, other than what I’ve already said here? Only one thing, and I mean it from the bottom of my heart: I love you David Foster Wallace. I love you and we’re in deep shit now without your navigating system and your mapping of the social mind lost amongst the objects. I love you David Foster Wallace, and thank you.

And, no, I never picked up a girl with a line about the poor state of writing in America. Only you, David Foster Wallace, could have pulled something like that off.

Check out video of a 1997 interview with Charlie Rose.

What is Going to Be Our Future?

“Confronted with a choice between saying no and saying yes, Americans are going to say yes — and in the process, show themselves and the world that America is still a place capable of reinventing itself.”

Gary Kamiya. March 13, 2008
“Poetry vs. Fear”


Photos above are taken from a Daily Kos entry in early March charging that the Clinton campaign doctored a photo of Obama to make him appear darker.

Out of Admiration

“In fact, I would venture to predict that the number of Americans who will vote for Obama because he’s black — out of admiration for his achievements and character, to prove to themselves they’re not prejudiced, to prove to the world that America is not prejudiced, to effect a historic change — will be greater than the number of Americans who will vote against him for the same reason.”

Gary Kamiya, Salon, May 13, 2008, “Poetry vs. Fear”

If you think he’s going down, you’re UnAmerican.

Pondering Baseball’s Purity

Go to Hitting with Wood to see my new baseball blog and to read my editorial published in The Philadelphia Inquirer on the metal bat controversy.

Stay tuned for more commentary on racial confusion in America.

Beyond Prejudice and Stupidity

Race is boiling up again in the collective conscience of public media and viewership. Michael ‘Kramer’ Richards’ comedy rampage got things going in grand style. Joe Biden kind of goofed his way into heating up our national confusion with his improvisational riff on Barack Obama as “the first mainstream African-American [candidate] who is articulate and bright and clean“. But Biden is by no means alone in coming across as a twit (I sat and chatted with Biden and his mother once at a bus stop in Wilmington, Delaware, and I know the man is not a twit and that he certainly deserves to be considered a strong contender for President of this country). As you will see in the links contained in the short essay below, the foot-in-mouth syndrome is growing with a fervor. Sadly, it’s not just liberalish people of European descent who are letting loose.

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Beyond Prejudice and Stupidity

I am not yet convinced that I will be voting for Barack Obama in the primaries next year. It is too early to tell anything about this man’s hardcore ability to make tough decisions or to perform the demanding work of a statesman. I’m tired of liberal pandering and compromise. I’m tired of politically correct candidates mouthing the platitudes of the past 45-50 years. Substance, fearlessness, and truth about our future and how we’re going to get there is all that matters now. Does Obama have the goods? We’ll see…

All that said, it is very likely that we are about to begin a new chapter in the country’s long history of presidential elections that will be as fascinating and breathless and full of wonder as any in our 231 year story. Barack Obama glistens and vibrates right now with positive force and charisma, the likes of which we have not seen since John Kennedy. Historically, the parallels between these two men should be carefully examined. Eloquent, thoughtful, truly inspiring leaders are few and far between for this nation — for this world. Will Obama rise to the level of our one and only Irish Catholic President with that intoxicating Camelot glint in his eye? Only time (and the media and dirty politics) will tell. The best hint of success right now is how clearly so many people want to see him succeed.

With regard to the manner in which race will shape this man’s candidacy and this country’s view of itself, as a people we have a dilemma. Race is such a false and twisted social poetics. Words are ionically charged to maintain a state of confusion all the way around. The majority of us have, indeed, moved above and beyond prejudice and stupidity, but it is still virtually impossible to speak about racialism without being offensive to someone or sounding dim, insensitive, or silly. This endless national discourse should be beneath us by now and yet black and white, brown, yellow, red, blue, green, chartreuse, virtually anyone who seeks to speak about this issue manages to perpetuate a spiralling vortex of half-truth, finger pointing, and Othering. It is suffocating and stifling to continue to go to this place…and very dangerous. And yet it continues, and so, many are trying to pull Obama into the fray.

How this very young Presidential candidate responds to the nation’s intense desire to pull him into the discussion about race may well tell us what kind of man he is. Barack Obama, like most of mixed descent, knows how pointless this talk of skin color and origin is. He has spent his adult life trying to lead people (just people) and shape the world into a better place. If he is to become the next President of the United States, he will be carrying all of us on his back. He will be leading us despite ourselves. It will be one of the more Herculean socio-political feats this country has witnessed in many, many years.

And then the hard part will begin for all of us, because for one man to move us so far above and beyond the twisted social poetics of today, means that he will then have to move us into our future where we actually begin to solve real problems and seek to grapple again with the promise of this country’s ideals and principles set forth so many years ago: “We hold these truths to be self-evident, that all men are created equal, that they are endowed by their Creator with certain unalienable Rights, that among these are Life, Liberty and the pursuit of Happiness.”

Photo credit: www.barackobama.com

Mr. Inevitable


An essay by Gary Kamiya in Salon.com today, “Me and Mr. Bonds,” (click on the title link above), takes an interesting look at the moral dilemma that Barry Bonds will present us next season as he moves towards breaking Hank Aaron’s career home run record of 755 (Bonds is at 734 right now). As most people know, Barry Bonds has, along with many other modern day sluggers, been accused of using steroids, growth hormones and other performance enhancing drugs in the last few years running up to Major League Baseball finally banning them outright. To put a fine head on things, Lance Williams and Mark Fainaru-Wada’s Game of Shadows presents so-called definitive evidence that Bonds knew exactly what he was doing.

Kamiya is a San Francisco Giants fan and a Bonds lover. He openly, and humorously, presents some of the basic excuses people are making for the beleagured slugger, and teases us with pronouncements that are somewhat nose-thumbing in posture, but pulls back admitting that, in his own words, he’s “…full of shit” in several parts of the essay.

I was hoping Mr. Kamiya would get us baseball fans over the moral hump that most people don’t even seem to be able to see yet. It’s good that he makes the hump visible at least, but he should have gone all the way. There is no question this is one of the true conundrums sports fans have ever faced–especially those of us who love the game of baseball more than life itself.

I was surprised, however, that no mention was made by Kamiya of the structural changes in the game that sort of detract from all of the offensive records we’ve seen since the late 1960s. Dropping the official height of the mound seems to me to be one of the more obvious asterisk producers I can think of. After the Year of the Pitcher (1968) baseball required mounds to go from 15 inches down to 10.

Although it’s not true of all ball parks, there’s no question that fields are shrinking. Most of the new parks have power alleys designed for fan appreciation first and big muscled boppers. Rumors about a juiced ball are always ebbing and flowing as well. Who knows?

And what about the equipment? In the early days of the game they didn’t even have home run fences. If you hit a bomb, you just ran like a bat-out-of-hell and legged it for all you could get. Gloves weren’t as well made either, nor bats, and the courage it took to stand in there on an inside pitch when you didn’t have a helmet (take a look at photos of Babe Ruth or even Ted Williams at the plate) is something we all forget–not to mention the fact that no one used elbow, wrist, and shin armor.

As I write, rumors begin to crop up that Bonds may be headed to the Oakland A’s next year — an American League team — where more than likely old Barry will become a designated hitter extraordinaire. One has to wonder how many more homers Ruth or Aaron would have hit had they been provided with such a luxury.

And speaking of Ted Williams and moral character, most of the real baseball people I know don’t give a damn about Ruth’s old record, Aaron’s current one, or Bonds and his enhanced possibilities. Everyone knows that Ted Williams, The Splendid Splinter, gave nearly 5 seasons of his career, from the age of 22 to 27 (kind of prime years) to join the military as a volunteer and defend this country in World War II and the Korean War. Five years is about a quarter of his major league sojourn. Williams ended his career in his last at-bat with his 521st homerun. He is number 15 on the all-time list. He’d be right up there near the top if they’d had the DH and he’d not been so patriotic.

Finally, of course, is the problem of modern professional baseball and it’s 30+ teams versus the “good old days” when there were two leagues with 8-10 teams a piece. Those who made it up to The Bigs were truly ready back there in the Golden Age. Nowadays, and we all know this, a good 30-40% of the pitchers just aren’t up to the level we want them to be. I don’t know the statistics, but I’d like to see a study done on who Bonds is hitting his homers off of–(McGwire, Sosa, Palmeiro and all the others supposedly disgraced by the game as well).

The point here is that if the moral issue about performance enhancing drugs comes down to the idea that some players are cheating and others are not, that’s one thing. But if you’re concern is about whether a performance-enhanced Bonds should get credit for breaking Hank Aaron’s record for lifetime home runs, you can relax because Aaron hit practically every homer (though not all) in the era of bigger parks, less questionable balls, and taller mounds (and for that matter, higher grade pitching overall). In this regard, there’s no way to take much of this record-mania very seriously. Post 1968 is a different era and there’s just no comparison (I won’t even go into the argument comparing Aaron’s feat to Ruth’s engenders, except to point out that a segregated pre-Jackie Robinson sport meant that Ruth never faced some of the best pitchers of his day but Hammerin’ Hank got to look at pitches from Ferguson Jenkins, Bob Gibson, Mudcat Grant, Al Downing, and Dock Ellis–to name just a few–regularly). And I would imagine even Hammerin’ Hank would tip his cap to Ted Williams and admit that his record and pretty much every other hitter in the 500 club should have an asterisk next to their names pointing out that Ted Williams service for his country makes all these numbers rather anti-climactic and flaccid.

But let’s go to the question of cheating by using chemicals, because regardless of records, that’s the real question. I am a 48-year-old squash player whose body has broken down. Five years ago I competed one night in a club match against a 17-year-old whiz kid (ranked #2 in the country in his age group). I stayed close for the first two games of our best-of-five match, but half-way into the third game my body began to turn into rubber and I was sucking wind like the old, feeble man I had just realized I was. I lost the match 3-1. In the final game I didn’t get a single point.

These days I content myself with long walks in the woods, hitting the ball around with other old farts, and working out on the court by myself doing drills and trying to learn new shots. My days of intense competition are over. It is a sad, sad reality to face if you are a committed athlete.

Add to my situation $15-20 million a year (not that anyone would) for another few years, and I assure you I would have no problem getting help from anyone who had a “cure.” In fact, I’m not sure whether there’s anyone in this country who would not do what old Barry has done. (People make asses out of themselves on TV all the time for far less money). There’s plenty of gym rats and running addicts and club competitors who have bought into the “fountain of youth” syndrome. In fact, there are doctors out there who are willing to provide any one of us with the necessary prescriptions to stay on the court or the track.

Is medical science taking a very serious look at what could reasonably be done for the likes of folks like me using low-dose therapeutic levels of steroids and hGH? Exactly what would the problem be if that were a real and acceptable option? Is it cheating when you’re boss takes anti-depressants in order to function at work? How about truck drivers and night-shift workers with prescriptions for amphetamines? Or, simply, athletes who get cortozone shots or prescriptions for other pain meds? Or look at the case of Adam LaRoche of the Atlanta Braves who must take a banned substance in order to control his attention deficit disorder. Yes, he’s a much better player under the influence. Is that natural? Is it right?

Where do we draw the line? I don’t think we can. You can try, but you risk sounding awfully sanctimonious…and the louder you yell, the more obvious it will be that you haven’t got a leg to stand on. This is the 21st century. We’re kind of different than we were back there in days of yore.

In the end, it all comes down to two weird ideas that we seem to have about Sports: 1) competition must be based on equal playing fields and, 2) athletes should compete in “natural states.” I’m not sure if these ideas are driven more by the basic philosophy of the fan as an innocent who needs to trust what they’re seeing, or by the gamblers out there who govern so much of sports from the underground.

But there are no “equal playing fields” and no professional athlete is in a “natural” state. Special diets, special workout techniques, hi-tech excercise machines, scientific practice schedules, the fact that athletes can simply dedicate themselves to nothing but playing–all of this is unnatural, and truly, remarkably, presents room for massive amounts of inequality. If we took this logic to it’s ultimate conclusion, maybe pro basketball should limit player height to 6’6″, and maybe pro football should limit weights to 280 pounds. And maybe in baseball every field should have the exact same measurements and pitchers who throw over 100 mph should be penalized. Certainly, all the body armor that baseball players wear while at the plate needs to be banned. And it’s common knowledge that many players in many sports take amphetamines on game day. Who’s really making a big deal about that?

You may think I’m trying to let Barry off the hook here. I’m not. I think there’s no question that his cheating sullies the sport (a sport I love more than life itself). But he’s just adding insult to injury. I love The Game itself, but I’ve got a love-hate relationship with the major leagues. The Majors easily gets me confused about my feelings for The Game. I’m very happy coaching youth baseball where there’s never an equal playing field. I love working with preternaturally gifted athletes side-by-side with kids who can barely catch. And I am happiest most of all watching high school ball where the only reason anyone is playing is to play, and there are usually no home run fences.

What I like about the pros is that they make fewer errors than any other level and that they are so monumentally talented. No matter what, the eye-hand coordination required to make full contact with a ball thrown 95-100 mph is a titanic feat–juiced or unjuiced. I’ll take it however it’s dished up. I always wonder how home run balls feel traveling so high above everything, knowing they are on their way to never-never land.

Barry will confuse many people, but not me. It will be marvelous to see him break the record, but it won’t mean a whole lot…and you can be sure that Barry, a student of the game and Willie Mays’s godson, knows better than any of us how stupid and pointless it is to make such a big deal out of this. He’ll be happy for awhile; he’ll be relieved; he’ll make a good amount of money off his name for the rest of his life; but he will not be confused by what he’s done. He prolonged his career (and money-making potential) by taking drugs, and maybe gave himself a little boost of power in the process. But the record? My guess is that Barry Bonds already understands that in the end records mean very little to a retired player. At best they’re like trophies sitting in your den; at worst they’re a reminder that you’re done with the game, there’s absolutely nothing you can do about it, and now you have to figure out how to be a real person in a world you never even knew existed. God bless you Barry Bonds. God bless the game of baseball. God bless us all. Think 756…

The New World


On September 11th we needed to say goodbye.
Our phones are mobile now
So we did. And somewhere
In that bright blue sky
Samuel Barber’s Adagio for Strings
Found every one of us.

We needed to say goodbye to innocence;
Goodbye to an innocence
We did not know we possessed
Until it was gone.

There is no longer anything to hold onto.
We are letting go.
The world of silk and linen
The world of wet hair and hot skin
Is drifting into memory, into time.
We are left with our selves,
With each other.

That night, we listened to the Beatles
And watched Sam Waterston and Robert Redford
In The Great Gatsby.
A blue pool under a hot, summer-ending sun.
“Speaking words of wisdom. Let It Be.

We did not know it was behind us
Until it was.

You can’t repeat the past.
It is gone.
We are left to dream our new world.
We are left with our dreams
And the new world.

© David Biddle, September 12, 2001

WildViolets, Toasted-Cheese, Sleep Magazine


Several websites have recently published fiction that I’ve written. Sleep Magazine posted my short story, “The Exact Black of Night,” back in October. You can find it in their archives near the bottom of the page. I am tickled pink that a London-based, avant garde team of crazy wonderful supporters of new writing would choose my story about a desolate, American male, lost and lonely in his neighborhood video rental shop.

Wildviolet.net has also published excerpts of journal entries by Cecil Miller from my first novel, The Electric Pool: Beyond the Will of God. If you were around in the Sixties and Seventies, then you know that there was magic and philosophy in the air. “The Significance of Music” addresses that magic and philosophy. Let me know your thoughts. I’m editing The Electric Pool again and want to re-submit to agents and small presses in early 2006.

Finally, back last summer the well-regarded magazine, Toasted-Cheese.com, published my little short piece, “Guda and His Son,” a story about a Pakistani father and his American-born son, Carter, one early summer morning a few years ago working together at the gas station they own. There’s a nice little payoff for the reader, so check it out.

Let me know what you think of my work. Send agents and publishers to my stories. I am going to die an unhappy, possibly early, death if I don’t get to the point where I’m earning my living writing full-time.

More power to you. Read books! Take the time to pay attention to short stories. Eat lots of fiber. Grow your own thoughts. Life is for the creative and thoughtful. Go watch a Little League baseball game this spring!

-db